Poem Unknown #1 I sway too easily to the sound of a song

There's an unsettling sense of melancholy
hanging in the air tonight, resting with me
under the pale shining moonlight

I wish I knew where it came from;
this feeling that refuses to let me sleep
as my chemical sanity diffuses

Why, when my soul skips to the melody
of my life's song, do my words come out jumbled
and are conveyed so loudly, yet wrong?

How many sacrifices must I continue to make
in these fake surroundings, so surreal
and my personal debt, astounding

There's a malicious being toying with the heart of me
bending and warping in and out of posture,
my cancer hidden beneath the skin

try, I have done to tear it apart from this life
yet it persists, returns spawning from the depths
of my very own soul, a fertile abyss

So to seek the answer, I fear I must leave
to the valley of the dead, and barefooted
suffer a tour and tread with dread

But the thought shakes me now to the core
of the place I delve, in order to walk out a hero or
villain, I must bear the key to myself

Humanity's greatest fear, so why must the hero be I; ME?!
Pitted single-handedly against own evil
I had grown up to see

When in the end, the valor may have been pretend,
pretentious in the others eyes, so as I walk away
they hate the pride I may wear forever: a disguise.

Oh, with this thought, I realize I have no choice
doubt only arises in the pitch of my own voice
this is my own battle, my strength must suffice

My perspective is everything to me, and casts all my future parts I play
so I must grasp the chisel, revise my commandments, and seize the day

With these thoughts, I've realize my fate,
and now I know, regardless of the victor,
everything will turn out okay.